Week of sleeping and wondering..

This week has been lazy. I have not done much. I feel like a little kitten who has lost its favourite toy and now sitting in the corner having no clue what to do.

I have not been busy in school as I expected to be. Two spinning lessons, not three as I wanted to. No walks outside, since the weather has not been so tempting and it is not always fun to admire nature alone. What have I done then? I have been sleeping a lot, watched episodes of Friends and wondering about life. Am I doing at the moment what I wish to do? What will happen when I return back home? What are my plans for the summer? Actually, I do not know the answers to my questions, yet. Guess, I just keep following my track and life will show me the turns I need to take. It has worked so far. I am a bit disappointed that I have waisted the whole week doing almost nothing, but guess I needed it. To spend some time with myself in my Wonderland. I have not visited it long time now, which I consider as a good sign. I always hide myself there when I feel sad and lonely. Yes, now I am pretty sure I needed this week for myself. But this also means that next week I need to be more efficient!

Lately I have discovered myself analyzing words of the songs. Especially, I fancy one Estonian song 'Puudutus' performed by great singers Maarja-Liis Ilus and Koit Toome. It is Estonian version of the song 'Sometimes when we touch', just that the message of the song in Estonian is much more beautiful. I love this song. It gives me peaceful feeling and makes smile inside. Life will never be this way, but dreaming of the happiness keeps us going.

Ei sinuta ma teadnud kuis udust tõuseb päev
kuis langeb täht ja ükski soov ei täitumata jää
ning öö ja küünlavalgus ka seegi tundub uus
meil lõputa näib algus, nii kaunis ja kurb

Puudutus nii hell ka nukrail hetkedel
vahel palju muuta võib see meid
Ja selle puudutuse eest annaks kõik ja rohkem veel
ja on tunda, meile kuulub vaid see

Kas öelda suudab keegi palju tundeid muudab aeg
kas teada võib, et kunagi on lahkumisepäev
Nüüd ei silmi peida me teineteise eest
su embuses end leida ma ihkan veel ja veel

Ja kuigi aastaid möödub me teed ei lahku viij
a hinges see mis lõhub ei jahtu iialgi

Miks varem ma ei teadnud, et minnes käsikäes
kui mina hetkeks peatun ka sina seisma jääd
Nüüd ei enam peida me tundeid teiste eest
su embuses end leida ma ihkan veel ja veel

Ja on tunda, meile kuulub vaid see

Those great conversations with great people..

Couple of days ago I was talking with a friend of mine. Our conversation led us to think about the factors which actuate us to like one person from opposite sex (in some cases of course the same one) more than somebody else. I came up with three bigger categories: we either like the person physically, we find interests and views in life to be similar, or there is a mental connection. To have a relationship 'and they lived happily ever after' all three are needed. But very first to get things started, in my opinion is physical attraction and then we either find more and more similarities with inner-you, which increases the interest towards this person even more or we are very lucky to be touched by the soul... I did not really get to know his opinion, because a new question already had planted itself into his mind. What is the equation for the wishes and wants in your heart to become true? Our chatting is always alive and at times there are luck of words to make all our thoughts understandable, but finally we came on a solution. I do not want to take so much credit for it as he is the 'smart pans' here, but I hope in a way I help him to think about these important questions. Big thinker as he is.

The equation is following: heart + knowledge + (morality) + action - restrictions

Put Morality into the brackets, as it can also be a part of the knowledge. Depends on how knowledge is determined. We were happy to come on that. Yes, we are not the first ones and definitley not the last ones who were suffering from this question, but it feels good to taste fruit of the victory over the big question inside of you. Yes, it is not easy to make these parts of the equation to co-operate. Good start would be to look into your heart to find those wishes and wants :)

Today we talked long, too. I love the way he tries to decipher everything in a logical way. He knows that there are matters in life which just do not make sense in a way, but he is still looking for a reasonable answer. Everything must be explicable, or not!? I am of the opinion that not, sometimes it is good to believe that things are the way they are. But I love being the one he takes once in a while with him to have a walk on his Questions Path. There are moments we argue, or even get mad a bit. I am younger than he is and that can be one of the explanations why, but I know that in a way I will always be a little stubborn girl with my own opinion. I guess it can be a part of me he likes. He for sure inspires me, surprises me and amazes me. He has so beautiful thoughts. I am so glad I found him. Thank you! :)

Eating humble pie..

Maybe you have noticed that I have not written my blog for ages. No you have not? Perhaps a reason might be that you have already forgotten that I have one. What a shame, isn't it! I do not want to make any promises, but I will try to keep you informed about the latest events in my life, or maybe not that latest anymore as one could say. I am still in Maastricht as most of you have probably realized ;) I will stay here till June. Yep, next hard months full of studying are waiting for me. But I am not complaining, not yet. Yes, at times I am sick of this shit, but who wouldn't, right. Anyway, keep in touch!!!

I still love you all!!!

Computer ..

JUHUUUUU.. I am going to get a new computer pretty soon!!! so, what kind of value it actually does give you my dears??? it means that hopefully you are going to hear much more about my life. many things have happened. I mean, really, I definitely cannot say that my life has been boring. of course there are things which are not worth to smear a blank paper (i cannot damage my good name, you know :D), but also the ones who make me feel happy and really satisfied about the time I have spent here in The Netherlands. I am in love!.. with my life here, of course;) and jep, maybe in love in its true meaning, too.. but you will hear about it some other time, ok :)

Love you all and miss like crazy!!! who is planning to come to visit me???

Kisses!!!

First project - Starbooks

Our IMC plan team in Brand Management class: me, Benedicte from France and Amy from Hong Kong

Out of Order..

Hi family, friends, close acquaintance, just acquaintance and all the others who like to visit my blog once in a while!

My computer is out of order and it will take some time to fix the problem.. so, it can happen that u may not hear from me for a while.. not that I have been really active to fill in my blog with the most interesting reports, but I do have some more pic I haven't posted yet and a lot of events to talk about.. my little excuse of being inactive is that I HAVE NEVER HAD TO STUDY AS MUCH AS I'M DOING IT HERE!!! can u believe.. me and studying even more.. doesn't make sense, does it.. hahaha.. anyway.. I love you all and miss a lot, but I'm not ready to come back home yet ;) I know that it is very easy to miss me, (come on, who can resist that cute smile, right )but I'm sure you can all handle it ;)

kisses from Sassu!!!

Great publicity..

damn, these people have done a magnificent job..

There is a thing in my pocket,
but it's not one thing, it's many.
It's the same as other things,
but exactly like nothing else.
It has an eye and an ear,
it shares what billions hear and see.
It's not a living thing,
but if u feed it, it will grow.
It can rally the masses,
can silence the crowd.
It can speak a thousand words,
but it has no voice.
It can find you the places,
so you can get lost.
And it can let others feel what you've just been touched by.
There is a thing in my pocket,
but it's not one thing, it's many!

Future-Past...

When I get old then I want to walk hand-in-hand and coo in the public with my husband, just to look incredible sweet and make young people jealous..

And more ..

Local party 01.09.07 ...Our guesthouse is the best!!!

Beer opening..

It was harder than we expected ;)



Still closed!!!

Even Zuzana didn't know how it worked :D

Almost Polish gang..

Beer can is officially opened! :P

Indian guys :)

Some snacks :P

Priit arrived! :)

Me drinking Indian tea :)

Again these Polish people :D

These faces you already know :)

Sweeter, sweet and the sweetest :D

I love these girls ;)

Just happy me :)

More pics...

Speedmeeting 31.08.07

Could u drink it???